Tragic

This morning about 15 miles from my house a mother threw her two children off an overpass into oncoming morning traffic and then jumped... I am sure it will be all over the news tonight. Right now they are saying all three survived... but their condition is unknown at this time.

It is horrifing.
I am so sick about it.

How can a mother do this?

I want children so bad and someone out there, 15 miles from my house, doesn't.

why?

Why? Why? Why?

WHY???

In other words...

Sorry for the uber-dramatic last post...
I really am ok.

I just don't exactly know how to take the next step... which I think it adoption.

I will see my doctor on Monday for the first time since November... I need and annual visit and I need him to either refill my Met or take me off of it... I actually think that it is doing pretty good things for my body so I like it. I also am getting my Lexapro refilled (which, by the way, has been a saving grace for me). I will sort of discuss the "next steps" with him.... which should be surgery or IVF if I were to continue with my fertility options.

It is so easy to get sidetracked during the school year from making any decisions... I am so busy... and tired... and the holidays... and my work productions... that it is easy to just put things on hold year after year... but I think it is time. I think this is our summer to make the hard decisions... so please keep Mr. D. and I in your prayers.

OK... just wanted you to know that I am not going to be jumping off any bridges... today. :)

BFN.

Not pregnant...
Sunday, March 2 was cd 1.

Very busy at work.
Personally... sort of feeling like I am back in a hole.
Depression sneaks back in...
Just trying to hold my head above water right now.

Things will ease up at work in a couple of weeks... so that should help.
Just hanging on... by my fingertips.