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Thursday, August 17, 2006

nothing yet...

Day 11 after provera.... still nothing.

I am sure you are wondering if I have called my nurse... the answer is no. I know that she would want me to come in and probably do another u/s to see what is going on.... but I am so disillusioned with all of this and I really don't feel like spending another $100 for her to tell me to keep waiting. I will probably call on Monday if I still haven't started. I am in one of my "infertility holes" right now... I am so pissed off, so bitter, so irritated that this is happening to me when about a zillion other people have no trouble at all conceiving and carrying a child. And whenever I fall into one of these holes I have two choices... (A) shut down and get mucho depressed and weepy and feel sorry for myself or (B) Get angry and try to ignore it all and go on with my life. This week I am much to busy to fall apart... so I am ignoring it.

I am still having breast pain... but it has eased off a bit. And the bloating is a little better too... 1.5 of the mystery pounds have disappeared... so I am thankful for that.

I also have an infected toe from my recent pedicure. I am watching it carefully so please spare me the "death-by-pedicure" stories. I am soaking it in Epsome salts and keeping it clean with neosporin... and trying to limit the poking and pushing since last time I did that green puss oozed out. Dn't worry.. Mr. D. will force me to go to the doctor if it gets much worse. Can't an infertile girl even get a fucking pedicure to try to relax???? Jeez.

Reality TV is keeping me company when Mr. D. is at his show. Hell's Kitchen is over... I was really rooting for the girl who came in 2nd (why can't I remember her name???), Big Brother is always super-fun and Will is by far my favorite, Project Runway disappointed me this week... Vincent has GOT to go!!! And I felt sorry for the girl that went because I think her outfit was sort of cute and everyone's favorite Kaine's dress made the model look waaay fatter and he slid by... not far... Crazy Vincent may be good TV... but his designs suck every week... GET HIM OUT!!

But my favorite show this week has been RESCUE ME.. I just looooove that show! If you are not watching is is definitely one to get the dvd the first 3 seasons and catch up on this fall while it is off air.

That's it... just wanted you to have an update on my boring non-bloody life.


Anonymous Kelli said...

Hi Jamie,

That royally sucks! I hate it when you feel like you can't catch a break. " Infertility hole" is a good way to put it. I have been that way lately also. I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone, and hopefully things will start looking up soon.

If it helps, I usually start right after my boobs stop hurting. AF sure is a bitch, so is provera.

7:19 AM  
Anonymous Bebe said...

Wanted to swing by after your lovely visit to my blog. Sorry about AF and Provera ugh.

BTW,I absolutely agree with you on both Evil Dr. Will (love) and that awful, crazy Vincent (haaaaate).

7:31 AM  
Blogger Piccinigirl said...

I like "infertility hole" it helps explain a lot.
I am so sorry that AF (that bitch) is not coming. I don't know if there is anything worse than waiting on her.

Good luck with the toe too, ouch

I have started to watch Rescue Me and I'm hooked, I love it too.


7:58 AM  
Blogger Chas said...

I'm sorry that AF still hasn't showed and that you are dealing with an infected toe. I was hooked on Hell's Kitchen too! I was rooting for Virginia as well.

Just wanted to let you know that I was thinking about ya!

Hope to talk to you soon.

8:11 AM  
Anonymous Catherine said...

Just checking in on you - I was SURE when I got to your blog that you'd have some great story about AF arriving. I CAN'T believe you are still waiting. So, so sorry! Stay angry and busy!!

3:22 PM  
Anonymous Sassy said...

I'm also in the hole this week. It sucks, just plain sucks. I hope things improve for you soon, and that Vincent guy gets kicked. :)

10:10 PM  
Blogger Pamplemousse said...

Jamie, I have had Provera take 10-14 days to induce a bleed. You have all the signs it is trying to work so I think it will not be much longer. I find it helpful to take my BBT temp as the Provera raises your temp as if you had ovulated and then lowers as if your period were coming. If you know your normal range of BBT, it can give you an idea. I can always see my temp coming back down to the pre-o levels and know AF will not be far away.

2:12 AM  

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