CD 1...
Today I got AF on what *was* cd 27... She showed up several days early and she came with a humungous gush... (sorry for my hubby and any other men reading). But I had no flippin notice since I was too busy thinking my non-progesterone sore boobs and bloating tummy might mean pregnancy... but no. So I was at school in the middle of class when I practically has to run to the bathroom... gross. I guess that explains the unbearable headache that I had last night...
No 2006 baby for me. fuck... I will turn 35 with no baby in my arms. I will have another Christmas with out being a Mom...double fuck.
Tomorrow is competition. Think good thoughts for us. The show is ready.. the kids are ready.. Me? I just so nervous for them. I am sure they will be great... but who ever decided that there should be competition, even in the fine arts, was a total moron. Hey Texas.. get a clue... Theatre is not a SPORT. Every-freaking thing doesn't have to win a gah-damn trophy to be worth doing. Stupid. Anyway... just cross your fingers that we WIN. (I mean.. if they are going to force me to compete.. then I WANT to WIN... even if the system is fucked up.)
I'll update on this weekend after I SLEEP IN on Saturday.
PS... Please visit Ollie for my EXACT feelings on the "Endo Switch-a Roo" episode on LOST. UGGGHHH... I am so sick of infertility being the hot topic of the moment... I mean I would be grateful if they didn't make it so "quick and easy" to get treatment! But mostly I am sick of the misinformantion. I can't WAIT for the first person who asks me if I have had an ultrasound to check for Endo like Sun did... I might just explode.
posted by Mrs. D. @ 3/23/2006 05:59:00 PM
8 Comments:
Oh crap, Jamie. I am so sorry. I'm a long time delurker and really thought, for some reason, that this was the month for you. Damn, Damn, Damn that AF. She needs to get a life...
Hey, another long time lurker here. I don't know you, but I often hope and pray that your dream to be a mother is fulfilled. Hang in there.
Oh dear - I am so sorry hun. I have been thinking this week, when AF arrived for me yet again, that I am not exactly sure what the universe has against us but I really wish it would just LAY OFF. I know it feels like a futile activity right now, but all we can do is keep trying. Perhaps one day the unbelievable will happen. thinking of you.
I am sorry that AF arrived she is such a *itch! That really sucks, another year will pass and still no baby, I am really sorry, it is just crap. This IF stuff is so hard and it never lets up. I hope and pray that you will get you 07 baby.
Hugs,
Jenna
Break a Leg!!! I hope you win, one perk with competition is if the kids win they get to letter and I know that that is important to some of them
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I'm sorry AF arrived. This just sucks for you.
Good luck tonight!
Yet another long time lurker popping her head up here - and it was my CD1 on Thursday too, so much sympathy from me. Have been catching up and was reading about your "high but no peak" trauma - I HATE it when they do that. As if there isn't enough uncertainty in all this. You might want to check out this link http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/health/3148861.stm regarding ibuprofen - it's something my miscarriage specialist has warned me of. Break a leg for tomorrow.
triple fuck. I'm sorry AF showed up. I'm scared too just like you are. If this cycle fails, no Christmas baby and another Christmas w/o a child. God has a plan and there is great honor in waiting for your individual plan to unfold, but boy, is it hard.
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