I'm baaack....(with a sad update...

UPDATE: It is called perspective... My deepest sympathies go to Jessica's family and friends... it is just horrible news for our blogging community. She will be missed by thecountless lives she touched both in "real life" and on the web. So so sad.

Sorry for the delay in an update... I have been both busy with school and still confused about the lap. I know it seems like an easy decision... just do it... but my problem is (as many of you know) I don't really like my doctor. I mean I am sure he knows what he is doing... but his bedside manner is very casual and I don't really feel like he is "invested" in me or my pregnancy trials. I could find another doctor... but that means starting over and I just don't know if I feel up to that. So... I will be deciding in the next couple of weeks whether to ignore my fears and do the lap (making the appointment as soon as I get my period) or to ignore my doctor and forget the lap... OR as soon as I am out of school make it my new full-time job to find a doctor who I really like and feel safe with.

School sucks... my partner is doing nothing and it is driving me nuts! Since I last posted I have run so many events totally alone and it pisses me off! He is in another fucking world and I wish that he would wake up and realize that soon... I am going to blow! Tonight is our theatre banquet... yay! I have planned it at a wonderful restaurant (Maggiano's) and I have purchase all the awards, overseen the end of the year video, written all of the awards presenters speeches, arranged which kids will be speaking at banquet, purchased EVERYTHING for our candlelight thespian induction ceremony and had countless meetings with the kids planning every detail of this huge event... My co-worker probably doesn't even know what time he is supposed to be there. I am starting to hate him.

Guess what.. Mr. D. And I bought brand new shiny bikes this weekend!!! Mine is really cool and PURPLE! I haven't had a bike since I was in 7th grade so I sort of have had to learn to ride again! Last night we took our first big bike ride. We went all the way to the rec center and back home.. about 4 miles! That is pretty good for a total couch potato! Our plans are to ride each morning to the rec center and work out and swim and then ride home. Won't that be healthy of us??? So far I love my new bike and I really look forward to riding her with my hubby.

Today is cd 24... I have all the normal symptoms... I am praying like mad that this is my month and all of this lap business is for nothing. At least I know I ovulated... that's the first step. I wouldn't go so far to say I am hopeful... desperate is more the feeling I am having. This time next week I will either be pg or making a lap appt... Pray.