Not pregnant...

CD 2.

Today when I woke up two things were clear to me... #1 I needed to see a doctor about my bladder infection and #2 I am just not comfortable having my current doctor do surgery on me. I have though a lot about it... and I just don't like my doctor enough to let him cut me open.

So.. this morning before work I emailed another doctors office that my SIL recommended. I decided this morning that I would at least get a second opinion. I also called the nurse at my current doctors office and asked if I could swing by and pee in a cup and get a prescription for my bladder infection. I felt ok about "using" my current doctor for small things but surgery is another story... plus the new doctor that I called actually teaches other doctors how to do lap surgery... so there is no big deal waiting and getting another opinion. And if the second opinion is that I need the lap then I will pick a doctor and do it.

Fast forward to my doctor visit... my current doctor was out of the office and so I saw the nurse practitioner... (I am not sure what the difference is between a nurse and a nurse practitioner is exactly... but I know that even though they are not doctors the NP's can do exams and write prescriptions.) So... after I peed in the cup and we waited for a "just to be sure" pregnancy test she asked me "So what are you doing about trying to get pg?

I told her about wanting to move on the IUI and how the dr. strongly suggested a lap and she said "Have you been diagnosed with endo before?" No. "And you have had a hsg that was clear?" Yes. "and you have been pregnant twice?" Yes. She asked about my periods... regular, back cramps the first day, headaches and tylenol seems to make me feel better.... "no vomiting, passing out or staying home from work with cramps" No. I mentioned that although my tubes were clear in the hsg he though maybe the "little hair-like fingers" at the ends of the tubes might not be functioning... "Yeah.. but you have been pregnant...twice" she said again. I told her that if I need the surgery I will do it... but I just don't understand the reasoning behind it... then I said "I guess it is just the next step" and she says "well... it is a step". Then she opens her desk drawer and says "don't tell anyone about this..." and she hands me a card OF ANOTHER DOCTOR!!!! Then she says.. "I just don't see his reasoning for surgery.. and a second opinion is never a bad thing." I almost fell out of my chair. His own Nurse Practitioner thinks I should see another doctor! Then she gave me a prescription and told me to start taking it and they would call when my urine culture came back... (they couldn't do a dip because I was taking AZO over the counter meds that made me pee fluorescent orange and would mess up the dip test.) And then I left.

I left with a distinct feeling (as if a sign from God) that seeing another doctor is exactly the right thing to do. If I get another opinion that suggests I need the lap... I will do it... but this doctor is not for me. And today I feel like I might have received divine confirmation of that.

What do you think?