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Sunday, September 13, 2009

Where have I been???

Three Months...
Since I started this blog I have never gone so long without posting. I guess it is just so hard to come here day after day with virtually no news. I think I will just post a quick "things I liked" and "things that need to improve" post like I have my students do after they watch a performance...

Things I liked
Hiring a great new teacher that I really like.
A surprise redo of our back patio by my sweet husband.
Reconciling with my BFF
Vacationing in Kansas City and meeting my blog pal Jess.
Visiting my dear friend Kim in Branson and meeting her awesome family.
Mr. D and I taking Truman on vacation with us for 29 days!
Eating a lot of ice cream and cupcakes.
Our friend Chris and Lisa meeting us in Florida for 4 days on the beach.
Renewing our wedding vows on the beach in a beautiful service 7/23/09.
Surprising my mom with a visit.
Learning that "Manhattans" are my new signature drink.
Taking 20 kids to theatre camp.
keeping connected on facebook.
Starting to practice yoga.
Implementing a yoga class after school once a week for theatre kids and faculty
Starting off the school year slowly.

Things that need to improve
Spending the entire month of June stressing about my job.
Facing the adoption delays.
$800 vet bills for the cat while we are hundreds of miles away on vacation.
Having my theatre staff cut at school by 25%.
Missing my daughter Finley so bad... when I have never even met her.
Spending the entire summer tied to the pump at least 4 times a day... everyday.
Sore boobs.
Really feeling old, fat, and not that cute...
More friends coming up accidentally pregnant.
Fighting major bouts of anxiety.
Coming back to school to old issues not resolved over the summer.
Everyone at school asking "Hey!!! Where's your baby???"
The unexpected passing of Mr. D's father.
Feeling behind at school because I have just not been very motivated at my job... "baby fever"?

I am trying very hard to be patient. To live through every moment... but it is getting so hard. I never thought that our adoption would still be going on in September of 2009... Truth be told I expected to have a baby last April (at the latest)... but that is just not how things are going.

I still have faith... I know God is bringing our daughter to us... but this wait is agonizing.

My favorite yoga teacher told us the other day that in yoga strength and patience are closely related. The yoga definition of strength is "the ability to keep your balance when facing adversity" and the definition of patience is "the ability to keep your balance when facing the unknown".

Please pray for both patience and strength for my little family... all three of us.

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