2nd postcard...

The last 3 days have been fairly eventful... On Monday Mr. D. and I rented a two person boat at the Disney Contemporary Hotel and tooled around the Seven Seas Lagoon... That is the lake that links many of the Disney Hotels and the wedding pavilion to the Magic Kingdom, The Boardwalk and Epcot. It was so much fun riding around and waving to the people on the monorail! We had a great time! That night my Mom arrived from North Carolina... and Tuesday and Wednesday have been filled with eating and shopping around town plus a one hour boat tour of the lake near my Grandmother's house that showed the back yard off a the gazillionaires that live here in Winter Park, Florida..

Mr D. has been under the weather with a sore throat and a nasty cough... we are hoping that he is on his way to recovery... I think (hope) that it is just really bad allergies and not a sinus infection.

PRAY.

My Mom leave to go home tomorrow early in the morning... her asshole husband only wanted to take 4 days off of work. The plan was to go to Disney MGM and The Animal Kingdom tomorrow and to SeaWorld on Friday... but that will really depend on how Mr. D. is feeling in the morning... I don't want him to feel terrible all day... If not we will just hang here with my Grandmother... who is starting to open up and tell me all sorts of family secrets that I never knew about... Today she told me about her one true love... Not my grandfather or any of the other three that she married... but her high school sweetheart. It was quite a WWII story...

So that is it...

Today is cd 20 and I have had terrible heartburn and nausea for the past 3 days... Probably way to early for pg symptoms... I will blame it on Metformin, Progesterone, and the 10,000 calorie a day diet I have been on...

But... I am still a little hopeful...

PRAY.

I will try to update again before we leave Orlando... We are heading to SeaSide, Florida on Saturday and I will not have internet access for the rest of the trip... unless we find a internet cafe or something.

By the way... SeaSide is in Destin County... you know... where the shark attacks have been...
I don't know which is more frightening... the sharks or thinking about getting my fat ass into a swim suit to get to the sharks...

PRAY.

Postcard from Florida!!

Hi Everyone,
We are in Orlando and having a great time! My Grandmother's house is beautiful and right on a lake with a cute little dock about 10 yards into her back yard. It sparkles so much in the morning and Mr. D and I love to watch all the little animals running through her back yard! It is very relaxing. Plus it is in Winter Park, Florida which is a very nice town with lots of shoplined street and only about 20 minutes from all the Orlando fun!

So far we have spent a day shopping at Downtown Disney, visited Celebration (the Disney (read: Stepford) housing community, spent time in Epcot and the Magic Kingdom, and yesterday we spent all day at the movies seeing Batman Begins and Bewitched... We will go to the other parks sometime in the next 6 days and maybe go to SeaWorld... That is the great thing about being here so many times... we are not in a rush or a panic to try to do "everything" in 4 or 5 days... in fact we just strolled through the Disney Parks and just did the stuff that was new since we were here 3 years ago. The crowds are pretty heavy but Disney's "Fast Pass" idea has really helped the amount of time you wait in line... the longest line we have waited in so far was only 20 minutes... In the one day we were in the Magic Kingdom I ate: a half a burger, an ice cream Mickey, a pineapple whip (um.. more ice cream) a giant hot dog, AND a cinnamon bun!!!! Hopefully we walked most of that off since my legs feel like we went on a 20 mile hike!!!!

As for TTC... we did it on cd 11, 13, & 15... Not sure if that is enough (it only takes once..) but I was not going to ruin our vacation by being pushy... especially after being at Disney World from 9 am - 2 am... that is an 17 hour day folks!!!!

So.. I will update you again when I can...
I hope everyone is having a great week!

love,
Jamie

Didn't think I would post again this soon but...

Well... We left Dallas at about 10 AM and about 6 hours later we had a flat on the side of a VERY busy highway in Jackson, Mississippi... Mr D. changed the flat and put on the donut as I panicked that he was going to be side swiped by one of the 18 wheelers that kept whizzing by at about 150 mph... We started calling tire places in Jackson and were on our way to get a tire and... I swear you'll never believe this... We had ANOTHER FLAT. (Yes we checked all the tires before we left and they were all fine..) So... now we were stuck on the side of the highway AGAIN calling tow trucks!

We are stuck in Jackson for the night because the tire place didn't have 2 of the tires we needed... so... sometime tomorrow they will be delivered and we will be back on the road... We will probably drive straight into Orlando tomorrow but it will be a loooong drive... 13 hours...

I do have to tell you though... I so loooove my husband... he makes everything fun... even shit like this..

We have decided to have a TTCSex marathon tonight at the Hampton Inn in Jackson...

Jackson.. that name works for a boy or a girl right???

Hopefully no more bad luck on this trip... jeez... we really need to have a vacation without crappy things happening!

I will update again as soon as I can!

BAD BAD BAD NEWS... (with a brief update)

So I went in for my mid-cycle monitoring today expecting that the worse thing that I could find out is that my follies were not mature and that I would have to up the clomid dose next time... but that was not the worst thing...

As I got to the sign in window I was told that my insurance doesn't cover infertility (which I knew) what I didn't know is that the minute this doctor prescribed the clomid I was "officially" marked as infertile... So.. I was expected to pay a $450 monitoring fee for my sonogram and office visits... EACH CYCLE... I burst into tears in the office... The nurse was very kind... and told me all about using "OPK's" to find out my "O" time for this month... (Thanks... uhm... I knew about that about 2 years before I got to infertility...) So... unless I have a "fluke" pregnancy this month... we have no choice but to got back to trying au natural... And since I now have PCOS... the likelihood of getting a good egg on my own... seems slim... (Although Metformin does increase your chances of getting pg).

So... I did not see the doctor... I do not know the size of my follicles and as far as I can tell our journey is OVER right here... We can not afford to pay that kind of $$$ per month.... If we were to go to IUI's the out of pocket would be $850 per month... I am so depressed and shocked... The worst part is that I will probably be charged for my LAST u/s since that is when I was deemed officially infertile and prescribed the clomid... We'll have to wait and see if I am sent a bill. Niiiice.

I checked and I can not even upgrade my insurance to get infertility coverage... They just do not offer it. So I am stuck.

If your insurance pays for infertility treatments... I really want you to get on your knees and thank God right now...

Last year two days before vacation I found out that I was having my second miscarriage... This year two day before vacation I am told my insurance sucks... Wow... sort of makes you never want to go out of town...

UPDATE:
Thanks for all the concerns... My doctor is not going to code it as anything else... So... It is start over with my 5th doctor... or just hope things happen naturally... The insurance company is no help either... they don't cover any "fertility" treatments and there is no upgrade that will include it... So basically I am just SCREWED...I have been bawling all friggin day and I am just exhausted...

We decided to leave for Florida in the morning afterall... because I want to get the hell out of town before I explode!!!!

Our laptop can't be fixed so I don't know when I will update... I plan to be back home in TX on the 6th of July... But I hope to find a computer to check in at before then! I will do OPK's all week (even though they have never worked for me) and PRAY that things happen this month while I have clomid in my system... Who knows? We all know God can work miracles... Maybe he will work one for us this month...

Depressed and leaving for Disney World... I will update as often as I can...

I will miss you gals while I am gone!

Top 6 of the Week!

I am updating because of the begging from my friends!!! But there is really not that much to update... that is the one and only bad thing about being off work for the entire summer... the days sort of melt into one another! So... here is a quick top 6 from the past week!

1. Tomorrow is father's day so my Dad and his wife are coming over... in fact... I "should" be (a) cleaning... (b)... putting together my famous chicken pot pie... or (c) packing... but I am feeling soooo lazy today!!!

2. I had some car trouble and had to be rescued THREE times in one week! On Sunday some dumb ass dropped a big metal sign out of the back of his truck and I ran over it and flattened my tire and then today my battery died while I was shoe shopping... my brother came to my rescue both times... and then again today my batter died while I was at the grocery store! It was about 102 degrees out and I had 7 bags of groceries and the fucking car wouldn't start for the second time in one day... and my brother and Mr. D. were at work!!!! So I called my friend Chris and he came and took me home... it ends up that the new battery wasn't connected enough... and everything should be OK now...

3. We are leaving for Orlando on Tuesday... I probably won't have a computer since our very old laptop has decided to die... but... I will try to update at least once! I am so excited!!!! I can't wait to be laying on the beach.. I am trying to find a nice sarong to hide my big ass... but if not oh well... I am not going to let 20 pounds ruin my vacation... I will have a good body image... I will have a good body image... I will have a good body image...

4. I had my ingrown toenail cut out... Wow... those shots really hurt! I was happy though because it was the first Dr. appt. in 6 months that I got to keep my pants on... It turns out the doctor was a former infertile husband... They tried for 7 years then did IVF and had twins... this... as every story goes... his wife immediately got pg again on her own... It is amazing the things you find out about people when you start talking fertility.

5. My friend Nic is home and I met the baby! You know... I was so surprised.. I didn't cry or feel jealous... I was honestly just really happy for her. Her birth experience was really bad.. and she has 17 stitches... so... it sort of brought some reality into this whole having a baby thing...

6. I see the dr. on Monday to look at my follies... Today is cd 11 and I think we will start the TTCSex tonight... even though it is a little early... Hopefully I will have at least one mature follicle and get to have the Hcg shot on Monday... If not we will up the clomid and I really hope I don't have to do that... The headaches we really bad this time...

That is it for now... Sorry so boooring... but that is the life of a bored SAHW!!!! You know... I love the time off... but it really makes me appreciate how much I love my job! I miss the interaction!

OK... I will let you know how the Monday follies look!!!

Top Ten Things That Have Happened to Me since May 29...

1. My cyst is GONE! That is G O N E... Woo-fucking-Hoo!!!! Now that is progress.. and it only took 42 days... So... the plan is start clomid on cd 5 (Sunday) and go in on the 20th for a folly check and IF they are big enough (18 mm or above) I will get a big fat Hcg shot to make me ovulate within 36 hours... Then NO MORE MONITORING because we leave for vacation on the 22nd... What happened if the follies aren't mature on the 20th??? Well.. no Hcg for me, we try like normal people do (hoping the follies eventually mature and burst out an egg on their own) and we up the clomid on the next go around... So... How many people think I should start the clomid on Saturday night just to give the follies an extra 12 hours??? I am thinking of fucking with science here... oh wait.. that is what I have been doing for the past year...

2. Nic had her baby... an 8lb 11 ounce (big) baby boy.. Named him Joey... They are coming home tomorrow (Joey will fly all the way from London on his 7 day old b-day...) I hope to meet him soon... but I am a little nervous... I just can't believe Nic has gone through a whole pregnancy and has a baby and I am still at the starting gate...

3. We have decided on vacation... We will leave on the 22 to go to Orlando... I am meeting my Mom there and we will stay at my Grandmother's lake house in WinterPark. Mr. D. and I will do the Disney thing and then spend a few days with the family. After that we are going to SeaSide Florida where we have rented a condo... We will spend the 4th of July there... I can't wait!

4. I have an icky infected ingrown toenail. I think I am going to have to have it cut out. I have an appointment on Monday because all of the podiatrists in my area are at some huge convention this week and no one can see me... There is puss and blood involved... and it REALLY hurts (especially if you squeeze it... uuggghh). Can you die from and ingrown toenail?

5. I am comfortably up to 1500 of Met a day... Still not losing weight... but my skin ins really clear. I do find that I can only eat half portions or I still get sick... but even eating less I still am not losing...

6. I went to lunch at a little Cafe near my house yesterday and saw (not exagerating) EIGHT pregnant women eating there... Is this some sort of sign??? What is God trying to tell me??? Or is it some sort or cruel practical joke Candid Camera episode... "How many pg women can we shove into one restaurant before the one infertile explodes????"

7. The "miscarriage" Six Feet Under season opener really got me down... There REALLY needs to be a warning on these shows... jeez...

8. I still like my therapist... I am seeing her once a week. But it is so strange having such a one sided relationship... Sometimes I just want to ask "So how are you doing today?"

9. Our own Chas is pregnant! Keep thinking good thoughts!!! Congrats Sporty!

10. I have committed to at least 5 new reality shows for the summer and my TiVo is filling up with so much mindless entertainment... Please... I have got to read a book or something this summer... I am a teacher for God's sake.


That is it for now... I am still working on the interview that celestially sent me... I swear I will finish it soon... Also check out Karen's entry on getting "Pregnated"... it is a great one!

A million promises to update more often... Now that I am back to TTC I am sure all the old whines and gripes will return!